Mommy wow, I'm a big kid now!

Today is the beginning of the rest of my life (again).  Well, I guess there are a few times you say that in your life; graduations, accomplishments, marriage, kids, etc.  But today is one of those days that I will look back on because it signified something monumental.  Today (well tonight) is the first night I am staying in my condo.  Although I technically got the keys on Friday, tonight is my first night sleeping here so it finally feels real.  A place of my very own, something I've worked for (and will have to continue to do so for the next 30 years, no pressure).  I think today makes me feel more like an adult than ever before, it's  a new chapter in my life I am slowly putting together.

Currently the my condo is pretty empty.  The only furniture here is my bed; the walls are bare, the living room is just an open space.  So right now it feels kind of empty (and a little lonely - but good thing my excitement overpowers that).... but in the coming weeks it will come together.  I'm excited for it to come together and be a place I picked out, I purchased and I made into a place to call home. I can't wait for it to feel home-y!!

I've moved out of my parents a few times over the years, with college and renting places around town, but today leaving was different.  Different  because it was basically for good ('God willing and the creek don't rise' as my Grandpa would say).... which didn't really hit me until now.  I tried to ignore my mom who was getting emotional as she watched me pack up my bed; which to her signified it being official.  I wasn't going to be coming home there anymore (I mean I will occasionally - who doesn't love free dinner), but it showed her I was a "big girl" and was officially grown up and out of the little nest I've called home for 24 years. I think she might have an emotional break down the day the rest of my furniture leaves and my room is completely empty (not that she might have not started said breakdown tonight).  I can't really imagine the emotion, I mean I presume it's mostly happy, but it has to be a little sad.  I mean I don't know how all families are, but I think this is much harder on my Mom today, and my Dad is indifferent... Dad is just thinking of his honey-do list I have created for him.  (Dad will encounter this mess of emotion at my wedding - mark my words).  I feel SO lucky to have supportive parents that helped me get to here, and I can't even explain how elated I felt when they both individually told me that they were so proud of me.  I think as kids that's one thing we always want to hear from our parents, besides "I love you".   Thinking about it made me emotional (which is a rarity for those who know me - and thank goodness this isn't a video blog, talk about awkward), but it's just a big step in my life.

Well I better try and get some sleep, although I wonder if it will be reminiscent of childhood when you are too excited to sleep - I hope not, because that will make tomorrow at work not so much fun.  The lack of blinds and east-facing windows will probably ensure I awake earlier than I intended, which might be good on the long run, but not so much tonight/tomorrow.

Au revior from my new humble abode.